So happy Halloween…….and welcome November.
New month new beginnings for me.
I took a long hard look at my life today. My health, my relationship and my dreams for the future. It was intense. I got stressed so I aggressively kneaded pizza dough and then
ate a whole pizza for lunch….phew. I dragged myself to the chiropractor and found out that I have been ignoring some serious issues for 10 yrs. Gave my self a smack on the hand for neglecting myself and vowed to get it sorted. I also sent off the final part of my application to return to study next year so that I can teach visual art.
My 20′s were for reckless abuse of my body, mind and heart and now my 30′s are going to be the decade of recovery, re focus…rehab basically!
It’s so easy to get lost in your efforts to please everybody else and to live up to their expectations. You forget yourself. When I turned thirty in september I stopped and thought, hang on a min, what do I want?
So I applied for a uni course, took up zumba classes, made some new friends, re-connected with some old ones, saw a chiropractor about the problem I have been ignoring, and some other positive things. It feels good.
Some issues are so deeply woven and engraved that they can not simply be described on a tick list and therefore can not be solved by making a simple change. But all we can do is acknowledge them, face up to them and try to either build bridges or cut our losses and move on.
Life is scary. Making decisions is scary. Facing the truth is scary.
You have to take charge.
I love something that a friend of mine said recently when consoling someone about their anxiety issues. She said “you have to take charge of it before it takes charge of you”. So true
ahhhhhhhh anyway that’s all a bit heavy.
I hope that you all enjoyed your witches brew and worms spaghetti and you got treated, not tricked.