Hello, its been a little while and I’ll tell you why.

I have been very busy in the midst of finding myself employment. Mum and I have decided to go back to the drawing board with our little business and go out and earn some real dollars. I have had the luxury (as some might say) of being a stay at home mother for almost 3 years. It has not been a breeze as we all know (or are otherwise reminded) that being a mother is the hardest job of all.  It has been quite a journey going through this transition and I have had to let go of the guilt that come with saying goodbye to your babies in the morning and picking them up at almost bed time. My youngest is only 11 months and I am very protective of him.  Every family has to do what they have to do to survive. One income is not enough for us to live out our dreams and desires for the future,  so here I go,  off to work.  I have always stuck by the philosophy ‘happy mummy happy baby’  This has helped me through the times where that twinge of guilt for doing something that is not purely selfless arrises.

I have been reading support forums for working mums,  the only real benefit of this is that it reminds me that there are millions of us, all going through the same feelings and dilemmas.  My situation is not unique and many children are in daycare from a far younger age than mine.

I made a pledge to not surpass any opportunity that came my way and to not let anxiety stop me in my tracks. So I have excepted a job. It is a succession role, training to eventually be the manager of a contemporary silver jewelry store in the city.  This is a HUGE change for us and I have to say it is really overwhelming.  I also have to say that my new guilty pleasures are dressing in glamorous clothes, having uninterrupted trips to the bathroom and not repetitively saying….. put that down, stop that , stay still and hurry up! oh yes and being able to drink a whole cup of tea whilst it is still hot.  But my boys, as demanding as they are, are my heart, my joy, my everything so naturally I would prefer to be with them covered in snotty finger prints and patches of baby sick.

There are pros and cons to both working and to staying at home. I can’t decide who is more difficult to work with, My demanding little customers or the ferociously competitive natured  ’sales ladies’.  Either way all I can do is focus on the positives and embrace this new challenge knowing that my boys glowing little faces will be there to greet me at the end of each day.

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Any working mums out there with advise or stories? I would love to hear from you.